I am a sellout. Selah.

Well, after much resistance, I have finally caved into the idea of writing a blog. The idea has always appealed to me, but I just feel like there are so many people writing blogs despite their 'target audience' not really caring. But I think I am finally okay with this fact; this will be more for me than for an audience. But hey, if you guys get something out of any of this writing, then sweet. Still though, I cannot help but feel like a little bit of a sellout...

The title of this blog is 'Selah', which is a Hebrew word that pops up in the Psalms every now and then. I love the word, in part because no one really knows what it exactly means. Mystery is one of the many spices of life. With that comes some sharp disagreement about what it actually means, but one of the best explanations I have heard goes something like this. I pulled this from the always-wonderful Wikipedia:


[Selah] ... is a difficult concept to translate. It is probably either a musical mark or an instruction on the reading of the text, something like "stop and listen". "Selah" can also be used to indicate that there is to be a musical interlude at that point in the Psalm. The Amplified Bible states Selah as "pause, and think of that".

I think that is beautiful, and a great way to describe what I want this blog to be: my outlet of introspection. In this crazy busy college life, I think there is something Godly and beautiful about stopping and reflecting on this life as it zooms on by. It also could mean to 'weigh ones life', to 'raise your voice' or a musical interlude. So it either means 1) to stop and reflect, 2) to yell a little louder, or 3) the biblical equivalent of a badass guitar solo. All are acceptable translations in my book.

 And since I am pretty terrible with transitions, here is a few little things you should know about this blog/me:

- It is going to be raw.  The main purpose for this is just to sort of spit out my thoughts and ideas into something tangible that I can come back to later, so expect messiness. Some of my thoughts will be pretty damn cynical and pessimistic, but then again some events in life sort of call for that. Or at least honesty in the heat of those moments. I'm going to yell and cuss, sometimes in outrage and sometimes in despair, and other times i'll be as chipper as can be. Maybe no one will pay much attention to it, but maybe that's for the better.

-It will probably be a bit stupid/cheesy. I go through my life with all these little flashes of insight that seem to come without any sort of logical cause. But that's how life is, right? Sometimes you get this ridiculous burst of perspective while shitting in a field (hopefully more on that later). God works in mysterious and sometimes really weird ways.

-There will be no real rhyme or reason to any of my posts. Some days i'll sit down and write something worth a bit of spiritual/emotional/mental insight, other days I might post a stupid picture of a childish meme. Come to think of it, those two camps pretty well describe 65% of my internet usage. Oh, and there will be poetry, cause poetry is bitchin. Hopefully you leave this page with some sort of inspiration, or at least a chuckle or two.

I guess that's all i can really think about right now. Huzzah for the grand blogging experiment, and for the increased risk of carpal tunnel it may lead to...